ouhrain. i'll forgive you for crying.

hello.

Ever since family members, teachers and fellow mates start knocking some sense into my GODdamn slow brain, I realise pretty much things right then. Sesungguhnya aku mempunyai kuasa untuk menukar segala nasib malang yang menimpa, alangkah gembiranya diriku ini. Alright, I am totally in the malay language mode since last week. WHY? It is all because of malay Olvls. Ive been reading stacks of 'cerpen'(short) story books only to stuff in ideas in this cramped brain. It is cramped due to certain unworthy things lingering in my mind. UHHUH.

So, Olevels malay was quite okay just now. It was neither too easy nor too hard. AVERAGE. Feeling damn syiok after completing ONE full malay paper. Now and later, I am just going too pray that I'll attain the grade I wanted; A1. :)

I am superb lazy to blog more. For all I know, I am not always going to fret over matters. Its tiring. REALLY. and, this blog's gonna be dead soon or later. I need all the time I have for revisions, revisions, revisions, and some time to chill. FUHH! From the bottom of my heart, I am truly sorry.
ermm, THANKS ALOT PEEPS from 4ENs, you guys are my laughters(if you didnt realise). SAYANG KAMU SEMUA! SUMPAH!

LIBRA BABIES!
You're a super hero. Without even trying, you'll perform some impressive rescues.

In Detail

You definitely need time to devote to work -- there's no doubt about it. You could end up doing some unexpected overtime for the next day or so, thanks to someone else's willingness to blow off their own workload. You're also feeling the urge -- and it's a strong one -- to be alone, even if it's just for a little while. Well, that's what evenings are all about. These urges might start later this week, but they'll still be there.

DEFINITELY, LEAVE ME ALONE.

TAKECARE.

*and i've told you; youve changed. even your blood said so.

taddaaaa.

alright, my current condition right now: holding back tears, great sadness, a little save, and screwed up.
Of course there's reason for all that. Well, to be frank, things have not been going the way I wanted and expected it to be. Seriously, I am already too shacked. And Im not shocked that my assumption was true. Happiness comes for a while. It applies to me greatly. I am lazy to write things out. It defeats the purpose. Nothing is going to change. What is done couldnt be undone. BUT, there's only one thing that seems to make me feel good. I am sure that I had done a right thing by letting you go. You've gone worst than I could imagine. In my eyes, you are like a spoilbrat. And to make you realise that, its hard but it wouldn't be sooner or later. Trust me. At that point of time, you are going to breakdown like a LOST symphatetic child. Good luck.

ADIOS.
TC!

ouhhello!

Right, things have been pretty much better, but I know, its only for a little while. As expected, MYE results were atrocious. Obviously, there's disappointment here and there. Teachers, give us more time alright' God willingly, everything will go great. As for today, ive received a few of MYE's results. I knew, english results was going to be bad. Infact, really bad. Well, the problem lies within me. I couldnt figure out on how to improve on my writing and time management, especially during examinations. I simply couldnt get my brain working when confronting the exam paper. DIE. And when I started to get the idea, its time out. how silly leen. sigh.
And next was SS results. I managed to answer those SBQ questions. However, essays slowed me down cause I got to much(nonsense) to write while there's so little of time. Again, i ran out of time and so, I didnt manage to complete the super easy(to me) essay question. There goes my marks. Duh, I failed SS by two marks. cool or fool?
Okay, I manage to just pass my F&N and I'm unhappy cause Ive sacrificed by not practicing and revising emaths during the day before the paper only to study F&N. I guess it was too much of memorising work to be done. However, I shall be grateful cause many didnt pass. 'alhamdullilah'.
Then, it was combined sci(physics). Ouhyeah, I'm glad i had improved my physics. I was focusing on this subject alot, infact. Hopefully i get to pass my chemistry and total up great. Well, I will continue being consistent and persistent.
I would love to achieve my targets and make mum and dad proud.

Anyhoo, my schedule is getting a little too tight than ever. Duhh, Olevel's approaching. The following two weeks will be filled with malay after school programme. What two hoots. Time is running really fast, arent they? I can still remember the first day of Secondary One life. And right now, in a few more months, i am going to sit for Olevels. COOL.
BLABLABLA.
I'm worried if I could not cook well this coming Tuesday. And ouh, its practical exam, if you have yet to know. And I will be busy during the weekends due to invitations. I wonder how I am going to buy those ingredients and find myself a time to practice. OUH, I still remember how someone who used to be very special to me accompanying me to the mall. MUAHAHA. NO more of that.

Ouhwell, I guess im done.
BTW, im super sorry if the post is too wordy and lenghty.
I'm not using handphone and I dont own a camera. That's the reason for not pics uploaded.

TC!