Temptation Kills.

I'm still fighting the temptation and well, it sucks.

Its not even end of month yet and I'm running out of cash. In fact, I'm already am.

I'm gonna be broke for the whole month of January.

What a way to start off 2011.

Hoping this will end soon.

I want a good 2011.

Better than 2010.

Alright, 2010 has been okay.

A total new environment, friends, colleagues, etc.

I don't want it to stop there though.

In 2011, I hope to get to talk to you.

More often, and that you'll be more willing to do so.

I want our paths to meet.

You're going away soon.

And I won't be able to see you as much again.

So that's why I want our paths to meet.

A little too much of expectation? Or should I say imagination?

Ouhwells. No one knows what's in my mind.

Everyday on the net, I'm always very tempted to view your profile and check you out.

Because your smile makes me fall on my knees, my heart skip a beat, my mind go wild and make me think about all the things in the past, then cry..

If that few short months never did passed, we might still hang out, maybe like close friends..

Having calls and telling off each other about random, fun stuffs.

All the things that happened in school.

The jokes and lame shit activities you do with your friends..

Go rock climbing with you.

Wait for you at any canteen or the bridge to just spend time in train together on the way back home.

Eat breakfast together.

Wake each other up every morning, prolly you'll be the one waking me up more.

I'll be like under your committee and working real close with you..

Find a job and work together..

Maybe spend holidays at the beach, strolling around town, camwhoring and just be in our own world.

Take photo booth shots.

You be my companion, and I'll be yours.

I thought of a lot of things about you.

I smile secretly everytime I see you.

And sometimes hide when I see you from far.

So that I can look at you way longer.

And everytime, I took a glance at mickey.

He's been sitting down in my shelf.

Dusty.

Cause I don't want to be reminded of the past.

But when I think of you, and that I miss you.

I'll just stare, and stare.

Things have not be going on my way, what I want..

All the things just got screwed.

I'm sad that now we're just like strangers.

Yeah, sometimes we do pass smiles..

But, sigh..

Tumblr is always making problem. So, blogger face it when I suck thumb.

Had a short conversation with dimples. :D

What's up next?

1) Meeting up groupmates for accounting project. (What else can get worse? ACCOUNTINGS!)

2) Gonna work full shift on Christmas and so-called the last day of work there. (After work, P-A-R-T-A-Y-E!)

3) Wanting to meet up with Mard and Om.

4) 58th, I don't why but I'm missing n-c-c.

5) I'll be going for school n-c-c training tomorrow, 0830hrs!

6) I wanna start gym-ing. I really do.

Sometimes, I just hope you can read my mind.

Know what I want and just don't ask.

Because everytime you ask, it irritates me.

Just decide for me. Know what's best.

Cause I made the effort for that every weekend.

Though it doesn't seem big. I can do things during weekends.

Like working. Atleast I earn more.

Or rest and rest. And hangout with my family at home.

Watch teeveee.

Sigh.

Hey HO!

Hello blogger! Ouh how much I miss typing long paragraphs in here.

Im gonna update things and talk a lot, I think.

First, I should make a point that Ive tried my very best to stop stalking all and whatever people.

Its pretty irritating when I envy or care about other's lives when i have a lot more to care for myself.

So, Leen, whatever you're doing, you're wasting your time.

Hmm, its certain that I might be the cause of you guys breaking up.

Its like Im living in your misery.

I know its not right, etc.

Time just flies and things just happen, so there.

Im pretty sorry.

Aye, forget! Im already having my holidays and Im happy much.

Well, not very cause Im kinda losing money real fast.

I just can't control myself.

And almost all my money goes to family or food.

Nothing that I spend on me.

How sad. :(

And sigh Im gonna be a damn broke girl this new year. I didn't work at all. So no money comes in.

It sucks big time yo!

I wanna meet up Om and Mard and 58th boomz.

Miss them much. Its a joy to see some of them during POP.

Im so not looking forward to working but the problem is I have too.

Or else, I'll be starving everyday. Should i?

Ouh, I wonder, in previous posts I did say about quitting and changing job right.

Ouh well, like finally. Im moving to somewhere HALAL.

Like finally Leen, people won't judge! Im happy!

There's a lot of benefits there you know. Except that work there ends early.

I can't wait for Christmas and New Year.

Okay. I can't figure out what else to write, though I feel like something's missing. But nevermind.

So, goodnight!