i was supposed to wake up at 7 and leave home by 8 but woke up at 9 instead, ending up reaching work at 11a.m. darn, i got lectured. -_-" gold star pin not punctual. and then, while working, the stupd main course came out while the customer is still eating her appetizer. aiyouu. i got lectured again cause i forgot to put the main course on hold. silly. and then got lectured by that very experienced colleague for not using a tray when carrying a bowl. sughh. nagged and nagged, super hating it.

ouh. there's orientation tomorrow 8 to 5. and after that, i got to rush to work and reach there by 6. how the hell im gonna make it? really hoping that they'll dismiss us early.

i dont want to hang around you cause one day, i'll still be leaving you. like why do i have to waste your time? right now maybe you dont mind, maybe later, yes. this ignorance and me avoiding you, is not the best solution, of course, but what else can i do? im keeping myself busy for a sake. yes, im lucky someone made me realise that what im doing now by making myself super occupied and busy is good. so that i'll not think of it and just forget about whatever thats happening. im sorry if im unfair to you and making you suffer or something. im just too tired and lazy to entertain.

people around me kept confusing me. at times they were saying about this.. and other time saying about that. contradicting much. sigh. i guess i just have to go with the flow, try to forget what thats has past and focus more on my profession. :)

TC!

hello.

okayy. today was the opening of the restaurant, like i said previously. there was a performance by the NSOs or so called our trainers and we had lunch together. so cool. we did take loads of pictures and im waiting for the photos to be uploaded. huhh. but then, it was kinda dry today as we only had a few customers. maybe because its the first day and people dont get to eat anymore free food like what we had previously. super cheap people. throughout the day, i was forcing myself hard to get myself awake. that soda didnt work mannnn. and ouh, i got tipped, for the freaking first time( of course la, only today open), but then, had to give to tip box cause we have to share. aiyou. ouh. i'm super lost in serving wine man. i dont even know how to open the stupid bottle. damn. and i got trainers telling me to do it for the guest. hell no, of course i rejected...

shissh. im tired and i need my 4 hours rest. got to leave house by 8a.m. later. hoping that the eyebags would disappear. huh~

tc!