hello strangers.

yeah, yesterday and the day today was way much better.
the sleep fizah emphasized on really works. thanks babe. and so, on friday, went to school, hoping for all the way good news. ouh yeah, super luck. i told teacher about the lost of thumbdrive and guess what' it was with her all the time. uhhuh. guess that this freaking idiot had forgotten to pull out her thumbdrive before she left the com lab. *alhamdullilah. aku dapat thumbdrive ku balik. amin.* gah, and during english lesson, it was a quiet & super sad situation though. friends had been affected badly by the accident eilfi had especially floorball dudes. gosh, recover soon eilfi.*will pray for ya*.

and FNN students have to complete our research and development by coming Monday. The thing is that, we have yet to interview or survey anyone or anything yet. And so, fizah and I went around Sembawang areas after school, rushing ourselves to go to as many childcare centre. haissh. Some rejected, some accepted, some BS(bullshit). It was tough, very tough. Due to very last minute work, I copied some of fizah's work. ass me. uhhuh! but yarh, will adjust it a bit okay' after the one plus hour, we went to school back to attend ASP. fuh, ASP was sort of chaotic. We were supposed to do a test on 100 peribahasa. It was supposed to be a test. However, due to everyone started giving excuses like the question is wrong and most passing around answers, teachers stopped the test and we did it together instead. err. what kind of broken english sia leen''
and after ASP, we continued searching for childcare centre again, but this time, we went Yishun. and wai ling tagged along with us. it was freaking tough. superb tough. as we did not know where to find the childcare centre. but uhhuh. thanks to me. im like the finder and the talker and the everything. extra sey. huhs. actually, i asked for help from sis farhana. as she lives in yishun. called and text and soon, achieved. =) thanks alot yaww. after around 6pm, all childcare centre are closed. then, we went NP to rest. after the rounds and turns that we had made from one end to another end in yishun. bought drinks, ate at NP, talked lame crap shit with GFs and then to Watsons. i accompanied wailing at bus stop until her bus came and walked home. woo. reached home at nine. superb sia. tired out but still continued doing FNN. i ended up sleeping infront of lappy. =)
and as for today, woke up and continued doing FNN again. and at ard 10 plus, met tirah and ana to search for childcare center again. walked and walked again. the last childcare center was great. credits to miss siti. well, that's all.
need to continue FNN coursework.

nitez and TC!

freakfreakfreak!

its a total bad day for me. TOTALLY !
First of all, i got fed up with amaths question. Its irritating when you got stuck on certain questions. I felt like thrashing that freaking book man. Next, my thumbdrive that I had used to store my FNN coursework went missing. How nice. And while I was trying to search for my thumbdrive, that freaking mirror hit my head. CANTIK! and wait, it has yet to end. The document that I had saved after freaking research during ASP lesson was not properly saved in another thumbdrive. URGHH!! geramnyerrr!!! i want to shout as loud, AS LOUD ! Its super never ending bad luck can'
*ya' Allah, aper lah nak jady ngan aku'?*
its never fair. never. what am i supposed to do right now.

1. to redo my FNN task analysis which consist of nine long pages for I had lost my thumbdrive.
   
2. to redo my reserch and development which includes the survey questions needed for tomorrow.
   
3. to practice more amaths before its too late.
4. hold back all those feelings. *sabar leen, hari nie bukan hari kau*
   
5. to get a sleep right away before anything bad happens again.

wth. i need to redo every single thing again' @#$%^*!
*boohooo* i want to cry!

TC ppl. =/

Hello earth !

n here i go again. right, yesterday was superb. early morning rushed to school for i was effing late and im not hoping for any detention. school was as per normal. except that there's misunderstanding with a friend. ouh horrid! after school, this weirdo had to rush back home. the same plan as previous week. 'tutoring'. and so at YL, teachteachteach and hmwkhmwkhmwk. great that im able to finsh those three essays within those hours. and duhh, its real tiring. after im done with that, i met auzaie to pass a few wkshts. hurr. make me walk so far siaaa. da larh kepenatan. however, those tire-ness went away, for darl called and cheered me up at night. i laughlaughlaugh, darl jokejokejoke. so the gerek. thanks darl. u made my day. =)
and today, the same old routine. ASP and straight home. bluerghh. tired-up. im done.

picas taken...

TC all !

hello earthlots.

and here she blurts..

let me share about saturday. right, in the early morning, as usual, I went for amaths consultation. It was real torturing to wake up due to late 'mugging' previous day. And after amaths consultation, family members except dad(sick) went for cousin's party at wdlnds. It was a so-so situation. Family is so not into parties. boredom huh' so, after party, we went to SSC to get some proper clothes for sis as she's starting on her job soon. And then, went giant. Hunting for mum was way harder than to hunt for food. We lost each other and to call was impossible due to the no reception in SSC. And worse, younger sis and elder sis created a scene there. 'quarrel amongst each other'. freak. They caught shopper's attention. It was embarrassing like @#$%^&*. She punched and she kicked. mummy got pissed and so was I. And so, we just walked away. how childish' bluerghhh.
As for today, home-stay. frigging boring yuhhhh. blablabla. not even an assignment completed. bravo larh leen !! =)

alrite. enuff said.
TC earth.

the thought of you gives me hell.

hello again !

ouh well, this week was pretty HORRIBLE. and here starts it all.
on monday, i met nabil to tutor him on maths. it was so-called our first meet up and DUH, my first time teaching him. we spent time in yishun library for he requested that area. and so, i had no choice but to force my legs there. don't u know that i've been kept terribly busy this whole week' and sugar nuggets, it will continue till i end my Olvls. helling freak. and yarh, nabil had to leave early due to curfew, i think. haha. however, i stayed alone to complete those few pieces of hmwk i had brought along. sungguh the happily, i went home smiling like one crazy fellow. why' b'cause i so-called coincidentally met one of my darl-ex. and due to that, after the super long one year of lost contact, we finally text each other. bluerghh. my freaking close OBS partner. and im missing OBS. freak !!
ok next. tuesday till friday, i'm kept busy with after school programme. however, i managed to spend a little time with dearest mum on thursday. ouh freak, it hurts my vision and deep in, my heart. stupidity !! and that explains why i was freaking behaving like 'that' this morning. the late-coming, the no-mood, the silence, and the dieting. but fuhh, lucky darl-ex text to keep me occupied. thanks to freak-asses. and another thingy that keeps me wondering like one freak. supernum camp clashes with my fnn camp. how more freaky could that be' and due to that, i really have to fast forward my task, and finish my decision and time planning before the others does. freaking troublesome okayy'

and im so not gonna post about that too personal thingy. let it just stay as a draft. sigh''

and for you, that silent cry.
that's fer now.

TC earthlots.

and so why, why all this feelings'
sometimes, not knowing is way much better.
and no, no one knows how bad it feels.
it really is, that bad.
when someone just dont seem to care.
for the fact that they promised.

no, i tried to move on.
and be strong.
yet, once in a while, its you.
you came across my mind.
and i know you know.
but you just dont care.

and still, it hurts.
for you could move on and forget about me.
that so fast.
and you called it true love.
you took only a few steps, a few days.
just so few and u've found someone new.
and i was there, to talk to you.
but still you just dont care.

and yes, in that, ive tried my best.
but still i failed.
failed and failed, forever failed.
though i kept my words.
i kept my promises.
but you' what had you done'
not even a promise u kept.
and ouh. only one thing.
to break that heart.
great. how nice.
so, that's ure present for me'
after everything that i put into'
and now ure running away'
that so easy'
what do you think i am then'
huh' no, i aint gonna let you go that easily.
im just waiting for the right time.
and hey, wait for me okay'

..

ouh. those thoughts.

tell me why, youre so hard to forget.

don't remind me, i'm not over it
tell me why, i cant seem to face the truth
im just a little too not over you

aren't memories supposed to fade
what's wrong with my heart
shake it off, let it go
didn't think it'll be this hard

should be strong, moving on but i see you
sometimes i try to hide what i feel inside
...

a little too not over you- david archuleta

..
and yeah. its still there. right down there. is it true' yupp. it is. and who' its just you. but i know, i gotta be strong and move on. i cant let it ruin my life. no, not right now. and memories, i'll endure till it fade. and let bygones be bygones. and that phrase of lyrics, everything is true. and yes, please, im begging, dun remind me. it hurts. deeply, and i swear, it really do.

and crap, this week, a little too tiring. as promised, after school programme has started. from tuesday to friday. ma fan !! especially when there's ncc. its a little too rush. those uniform. and that day, squeezed in sir's car to SSTC. boys and the only girl at the back seat. how cool' and woa, part a's, those sec ones, too cute and toooooo noisy. but hey, they're total fun and madness. ouh. let me be proud of my cutest cadet. he's named, faqih. simply the shortest and the cutest. does those named faqih meant to be short'' oops ! blurt it out. so sorry.

and ytd, total defence day, carried out emergency drills. ouh. friday the 13th. the switch in my class went crazy'' all those smoke and sparks. and i was right infront. and the two guys told mr wee. instruction was to get out of class. *yess, hist lesson missed. but only fer a while. urgghh.

ouh. last but not least, happy valentine's everyone. dearest friends, ncc mates; ais, mus, melvin, sk, syahmi, habsah, akmal, wahyu & faiz , izza & nabil, and everyone else. have a blessed and never ending fun and laughter with all your relationships. =)
and to izza, leen wont be like that slut. mark my words.


and for now, i shall end this post.
take care dear earth. =)

*u just don't get it do you' i miss ure voice.

hello lovelies.

ouhwell. im updating again. :) i couldnt remember what exactly happened during the last few days(ouh great. leen STM) so i'll just talk about the day today. and so there were lessons. eng, ss and fnn. there were fnn test and great, i had only started studying this morning. eh, im not alone, cause the few rest of my classmates did the same. there's too much of homework given everyday and i kept delaying those homework. and it all end up pilling inside my file. how great. luckily fnn test werent as difficult like what i had thought. feuhhhh.
soon, assembly. there were performances by the taiwan peeps. 'chinese opera'. those who couldnt catch the story will go nuts watching. well, thats for the day. :)

picas..

my sis & me. went marsiling..

there, at kfc.

Junior and myself. Unzip pants (iskandar) and me.

Me & Tawakal

that pendek. =P

me & part C's

ouh my fav. she didnt let me place the pic here. so, i asked permission to do this.
it was freaking diff too take a shot with her.

Sazleen

dearest mum.

semangat NCC.

Chef Leen (lol !)

in the kitchen. fnn prac.
dun disturb .

the performance from Taiwan's.

well, that's for the update.
NAHH, take that wei de. haha.

TC earth!

*sorry for i couldnt be ure partner. its impossible.