Which one?

Hello hello!

I got nothing much to say as for this post. And no pics to upload.

Because the days passed just like ~~wind.

So, I had off for three days(wahhh, syiok man!) and went for CCA fair plus a role play just now; Monkey's Paws at SP auditorium.

There's like super alot of choices that i can choose from and its like super limited time and space to squeeze in my schedule. Pretty sad though. :( by the way, I'm still thinking of what CCA to join. These are the choices: silat(like bro), rock climbing(free and easy), gym club(wahhh, this gonna help me tune myself alot since im always busy and there's no time for me to exercise), SP premiers(be a NDP motivator and more), adventure club(can travel and do a lot of adventure thingy, i lioke!) and dance(haha, I realy wanna learn dance).

SEE, a lot right? So which shold I join? Considering my schedule(work) and NCC as my CCA already. Aiyouu. Stress sio. ouh, and while venturing around CCA fair, I took the free popcorn and candy floss, yummy! :D my teeth and lips went BLUE!

hmm. The Monkey's Paw was okay, thought it was somehow too dramatic, or is it meant to be that way? ouh, i was sleeping half the time. :P hahaha. but overall, it was good. :) great effort put in by SP peeps. :) thumbs up!

hmm, im still waiting, for the right, thing/one to come by..

and still hoping though..

TC earth!

:) :/ :(

haha! caught you on camera!!! :P (ouh, he's the medic for MKE)
and i miss mardiah truckloads! i guess the nest time we'll meet is 8 may for YOG trng..

DMB1B23^^^^^^

hello!
its like a week since I blogged.
this is like a little bit of time that i have and so, here it goes.

And I love Shanna, the only one I can really talk(as in problems) to during work. Thanks alot babehhhh! :)

SHANNA VATSALOO^^^^

Im like way too busy with school and work. And i guess i got to stop working too much since ive been sleeping in lectures and even tutorials manymany times. :(( i'll be missing a lot. Sigh. and i badly want a CCA! But time doesnt consent. :(

Other than sleeping in class, I got this habit of being late EVERYTIME! (shake head left to right). I got to really learn how to manage my time. Missing three hours tutorial just because i woke up late is really that disappointing and i still couldnt forgive myself. boohooo. (no use talking but not doing anything about it huh?) lolz.

Alright, I got to thank my classmates for teaching me certain information that i missed while sleeping or when Im late. THANKS ALOT BABEHHHH!

Guek Chee, ME, Fang Yi

THATS about it. TC! :)

FUN time.

~ and flag day was kinda stupid. haha. i dont know why this time round im not as brave as i was in secondary school going around and asking people for donation. so, this was what that happened. -i went to YCK to take dorita's and keefe's donation tin. woa, there was like a bunch of them at YCK. Then head off to somerset and saw students there too. so, i decided to drop by at work and then met mui na at city hall. we then went to school straight. Conclusion, i ended up collecting only 10cents during the flag day. And the total amount i collected- $14.65. haha. that little!

then after flag day, went to eat at foodcourt 3 and watched HOUSE OF WAX at main library. grose la that movie. watched halfway and went for the welcome party... supposed to go off to somerset and meet my colleague. then i decided not to. member sulk seyy. wth.

Aye, the food was good. Then, the show starts. It was good at first. Later on, the choice of songs really cannot make it. HAHA. I like the beatbox-ing. And the hip hop, wth, cannot see a thing! And the skate performance, I saw better ones before. Then came the very last part, DANCE! :D when the music's there, i'll just dance like nobody's business. So whatever that happened there, stays there. And i dont care what you might think about me as long as i had fun. weeeheeeeee!

After party, we went to red bridge. Listened to some ghost stories. Not as scary as misteri jam 12. haha! Then took the mrt and head back home. :D Reached home around 1130 feeling super tired...

okay i need to pack my stuff for MKE!

TC!

im bored, so i update.

hello!

thanks alot luhh for yesterday. haha. i took the transport provided and one of my colleagues wanted to listen to the misteri jam 12. and the driver turned it on out loud. at first im okay with it. but then as it gets lesser people in the van, i got freaked out. shit. i was the last to be sent home since i live the furthest. i sat at the front and as soon as i got off from the van, i ran home. i was like imagining things in the lift siaaa. huh. darn lucky nothing weird poped out. sial laaa. scary mannn. now im like scared to go home alone at night. ichiban sushi! thanks alot la hassan.

and today is SP's flag day. so, me and dearest classmates will be going around tanjong pagar asking for donations. those from other schools dont laugh, SP's doing somethin good. HAHA. we have the heart to help :P muahah. and in advance, i collected few bucks from dearest colleagues yesterday. wait, i aint cheating, i did told them it was meant for today and it'll be great if they donate in advance. so, fadlie was the first to donate and followed by the rest. i kinda bullied my restaurant manager, telling him to donate more. LOL. i'll be collecting Keefe's and Dorita's tin can cause they cannot make it. So, in total i'll have three tin cans with me.. KIASU luhh.

and as for the rest of the days, im gonna expose myself to sun. MKE. :D hmm. im not sure whether im really into it. i'm going just to spend time with mardiah sayang! hey, me no lesbo. and im really hoping that MKE's gonna be fine. to hope that there'll be no political stuffs and people trying to act as if they know everything.. well, i guess i'll just follow instructions cause seriously i dont know a lot about being boat crew. all that ive been doing is sitting down in the boat, rotting. ahah, just kidding.

now's 1015, and im gonna get myself ready to ask for donations.

TC!

freakkkk.

is it like my fate that wherever i go, i'll get bullied and played around? just because im young or being too friendly with people, they tend to take advantage of me? or iz it just karma, what goes around comes around? darn, its like im trying to endure whatever thats happening to me but at the end of the day, i'll just breakdown. wtf.
fcuk you. what are you trying to prove to everyone?? proving that youre so great and that you can handle every single thing by yourself and taking all the credit? whats wrong with you? dont you freaking know the meaning of teamwork? and people around you tried helping you but then get shooed away. wth. so you think you got people to back you up? and talking to that higher management about whatever things happening and trying to act as if everything is fine? just whats your problem? if you want, you can just open an outlet run by yourself. go and work until you rot and die. asses! urghhhh.

its my turn now.

I didn't expect for it to end this way. You know, you are never a passerby to me. Whatever things that youve done, I really do appreciate all of that. Yes, those memories I couldn't forget. We met, we spent time together and we had fun. It happened as we go along... But then, now, to me, things are different. Not physically but mentally. You know I just couldn't commit and its really hard to stay put. Im sorry again if im selfish, thinking only about my side and making decision for us. Ofcourse it wouldn't be fair. When Im with you, its like putting myself somewhere Im forced to. Its really that hard for me and yes, I know its the same to you too. Everything wouldn't be the same again. We might just end up acting like nothing's wrong. Is it really difficult to be friends? Things dont have to happen now. Its just way to messy and I really dont wish to solve this now.. That's where the ignorance and silence come. I just dont know what to say/response/do. The more I say/response/do, the worst it'll be. And I dont know what to do when there's people approaching and asking me questions I really dont wanna talk about. Its like- "just shut the hell up and go away!" And posting things in the blog, its like so darn obvious. You see, like what im doing now. Huh~

HELLO!

:D first day with SMA peeps was FUN! haha. first thing that happened>> MOSQUITO ATTACK! It was unbelievable. Muina managed to kill a lot. She ended up scatching. Im lucky cause i wear jeans and covered shoes or else, i'll be joining her too. haha. We're welcomed with a jazz performance and then some lectures( i was like snoring at the back). LOL. Then performance by the DMR dudes. Wahh, I swear his voice damn nice. Thats why he got second huhh. We did the SP cheer together. Cool thing. Theres also icebreaker which is singing songs together. Then, break off into classes and meeting classmates. :) Captain Chatur will be my class tutor. He remembers me, my brother and younger sis while I dont remeber him at all. HAHA. And as for classmates, we talked as if we met each other long time ago. haha. Im gonna love being with them. :D I skipped going to ploy marina cause I got to rush off to work. Yupp. I was indeed very early.
with muina..

with MARDIAH sayang!

DMB peeps...

with Guek Chee

with Nazira

with Keefe

with Dorita

Keefe, Capt Chatur, Li Hui, Dorita,Fan Yi, Nazira, ME,

After the talk by Captain Chatur, I was like telling myself and thinking whether I should quit my job cause I thought of commiting myself into poly life. How am I going to struggle and manage my timetable. And if i were to join a CCA, its gonna be worse off. sighh. Im like gonna be super tired rushing off to work after classes or maybe during weekends. Cause that simply means that I wont be receiving enough rest. And not having enough rest means I wont be able to focus much during lessons. AIYOU. stress sio..

Hmm. Im going for flag day and MKE. haha. Asked for off from work..

GTG! TC!

i was supposed to wake up at 7 and leave home by 8 but woke up at 9 instead, ending up reaching work at 11a.m. darn, i got lectured. -_-" gold star pin not punctual. and then, while working, the stupd main course came out while the customer is still eating her appetizer. aiyouu. i got lectured again cause i forgot to put the main course on hold. silly. and then got lectured by that very experienced colleague for not using a tray when carrying a bowl. sughh. nagged and nagged, super hating it.

ouh. there's orientation tomorrow 8 to 5. and after that, i got to rush to work and reach there by 6. how the hell im gonna make it? really hoping that they'll dismiss us early.

i dont want to hang around you cause one day, i'll still be leaving you. like why do i have to waste your time? right now maybe you dont mind, maybe later, yes. this ignorance and me avoiding you, is not the best solution, of course, but what else can i do? im keeping myself busy for a sake. yes, im lucky someone made me realise that what im doing now by making myself super occupied and busy is good. so that i'll not think of it and just forget about whatever thats happening. im sorry if im unfair to you and making you suffer or something. im just too tired and lazy to entertain.

people around me kept confusing me. at times they were saying about this.. and other time saying about that. contradicting much. sigh. i guess i just have to go with the flow, try to forget what thats has past and focus more on my profession. :)

TC!

hello.

okayy. today was the opening of the restaurant, like i said previously. there was a performance by the NSOs or so called our trainers and we had lunch together. so cool. we did take loads of pictures and im waiting for the photos to be uploaded. huhh. but then, it was kinda dry today as we only had a few customers. maybe because its the first day and people dont get to eat anymore free food like what we had previously. super cheap people. throughout the day, i was forcing myself hard to get myself awake. that soda didnt work mannnn. and ouh, i got tipped, for the freaking first time( of course la, only today open), but then, had to give to tip box cause we have to share. aiyou. ouh. i'm super lost in serving wine man. i dont even know how to open the stupid bottle. damn. and i got trainers telling me to do it for the guest. hell no, of course i rejected...

shissh. im tired and i need my 4 hours rest. got to leave house by 8a.m. later. hoping that the eyebags would disappear. huh~

tc!

hello

yes, finally done with VIP night and reached home around 0230. it went along well and HURRAY, i didnt drop any plates or fork or spoon. :D muahaahaa! and it was hell of a busy night. the restaurant was like super full inside out and the servers are like everywhere. haha. but it was a good night, really. :D so, tomorrow will be the opening of the restaurant and yes, lucky i changed my shift and i'll be there during opening. weeeee!

so, there's gonna be affirmation ceremony later right? i'm gonna miss meeting all of ncc mates.

:( dont get to meet gf,mardiah and omairah. boohooo. but nevermind, can meet some other time. right?

okay. gtg.

TC!

hello!

Right in the morning, had to rush to toa payoh polyclinic for typhoid jab. And yes, hand's numb. Im like hoping for it to heal by tomorrow(VIP night). Pray hard that I'll do well cause I'm like very nervous. What if I dropped the plates? Or maybe the drinks? And the wine service, not yet trained to do wine service. Those highclass VIPs and critics and the media will surely have high expectations.. Just gonna hope for the best.

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Then head off to fork and spoon for lunch with colleagues. haha. Alvin's photo doesnt look like him. :P

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And then rush to SP to enrol and to buy a laptop. Got myself a Fujitsu(white). And im using it now. Hopefully it'll be good to me. ;)

ouhwells, i know its difficult, but then its just the best way. I dont want you as a slave but as a friend. Please dont be sad or down. People can see it and they'll find me. One just did. And im sorry if im rude. You just dont know what im going through. Sighhh. You have to take care of yourself.

Nights.