its my turn now.

I didn't expect for it to end this way. You know, you are never a passerby to me. Whatever things that youve done, I really do appreciate all of that. Yes, those memories I couldn't forget. We met, we spent time together and we had fun. It happened as we go along... But then, now, to me, things are different. Not physically but mentally. You know I just couldn't commit and its really hard to stay put. Im sorry again if im selfish, thinking only about my side and making decision for us. Ofcourse it wouldn't be fair. When Im with you, its like putting myself somewhere Im forced to. Its really that hard for me and yes, I know its the same to you too. Everything wouldn't be the same again. We might just end up acting like nothing's wrong. Is it really difficult to be friends? Things dont have to happen now. Its just way to messy and I really dont wish to solve this now.. That's where the ignorance and silence come. I just dont know what to say/response/do. The more I say/response/do, the worst it'll be. And I dont know what to do when there's people approaching and asking me questions I really dont wanna talk about. Its like- "just shut the hell up and go away!" And posting things in the blog, its like so darn obvious. You see, like what im doing now. Huh~