hello earthlots.

and here she blurts..

let me share about saturday. right, in the early morning, as usual, I went for amaths consultation. It was real torturing to wake up due to late 'mugging' previous day. And after amaths consultation, family members except dad(sick) went for cousin's party at wdlnds. It was a so-so situation. Family is so not into parties. boredom huh' so, after party, we went to SSC to get some proper clothes for sis as she's starting on her job soon. And then, went giant. Hunting for mum was way harder than to hunt for food. We lost each other and to call was impossible due to the no reception in SSC. And worse, younger sis and elder sis created a scene there. 'quarrel amongst each other'. freak. They caught shopper's attention. It was embarrassing like @#$%^&*. She punched and she kicked. mummy got pissed and so was I. And so, we just walked away. how childish' bluerghhh.
As for today, home-stay. frigging boring yuhhhh. blablabla. not even an assignment completed. bravo larh leen !! =)

alrite. enuff said.
TC earth.

the thought of you gives me hell.

hello again !

ouh well, this week was pretty HORRIBLE. and here starts it all.
on monday, i met nabil to tutor him on maths. it was so-called our first meet up and DUH, my first time teaching him. we spent time in yishun library for he requested that area. and so, i had no choice but to force my legs there. don't u know that i've been kept terribly busy this whole week' and sugar nuggets, it will continue till i end my Olvls. helling freak. and yarh, nabil had to leave early due to curfew, i think. haha. however, i stayed alone to complete those few pieces of hmwk i had brought along. sungguh the happily, i went home smiling like one crazy fellow. why' b'cause i so-called coincidentally met one of my darl-ex. and due to that, after the super long one year of lost contact, we finally text each other. bluerghh. my freaking close OBS partner. and im missing OBS. freak !!
ok next. tuesday till friday, i'm kept busy with after school programme. however, i managed to spend a little time with dearest mum on thursday. ouh freak, it hurts my vision and deep in, my heart. stupidity !! and that explains why i was freaking behaving like 'that' this morning. the late-coming, the no-mood, the silence, and the dieting. but fuhh, lucky darl-ex text to keep me occupied. thanks to freak-asses. and another thingy that keeps me wondering like one freak. supernum camp clashes with my fnn camp. how more freaky could that be' and due to that, i really have to fast forward my task, and finish my decision and time planning before the others does. freaking troublesome okayy'

and im so not gonna post about that too personal thingy. let it just stay as a draft. sigh''

and for you, that silent cry.
that's fer now.

TC earthlots.

and so why, why all this feelings'
sometimes, not knowing is way much better.
and no, no one knows how bad it feels.
it really is, that bad.
when someone just dont seem to care.
for the fact that they promised.

no, i tried to move on.
and be strong.
yet, once in a while, its you.
you came across my mind.
and i know you know.
but you just dont care.

and still, it hurts.
for you could move on and forget about me.
that so fast.
and you called it true love.
you took only a few steps, a few days.
just so few and u've found someone new.
and i was there, to talk to you.
but still you just dont care.

and yes, in that, ive tried my best.
but still i failed.
failed and failed, forever failed.
though i kept my words.
i kept my promises.
but you' what had you done'
not even a promise u kept.
and ouh. only one thing.
to break that heart.
great. how nice.
so, that's ure present for me'
after everything that i put into'
and now ure running away'
that so easy'
what do you think i am then'
huh' no, i aint gonna let you go that easily.
im just waiting for the right time.
and hey, wait for me okay'

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